So, ever since I was little I wanted to take ballet. I know, most people wouldn't think that. But it's true. And now since my daughter is taking ballet, it's really come back to me. But, I can't afford to take them because we are paying for hers. So, what can I do? Right now I am just praying that God would make it happen. Hopefully He will make things happen, or just take this desire away.
I also have the dream of being a worship leader. But, I don't even know how that will ever happen. I love doing worship for the kids, but it's not really the same thing, is it? I'm happy with where I am, don't get me wrong. But I don't want to stay here forever.
I feel like all my dreams are so far out of reach. I don't know what to do. There is really nothing that I can do to make things happen, and I really am tired of living with the ache of these dreams that seem like they are never going to come true. I wish that I knew if they were ever going to come true. Surely God wouldn't give me dreams just to let them sit and never be realized, would He?
Monday, May 31, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Choir Tomorrow!
The choir is going to sing in Montgomery tomorrow! Yay, it's going to be fun! I love going to Montgomery to sing.Looking forward to it!
Friday, May 28, 2010
Share my geekey joy!
I got to go see the Surgical Tech classroom the other day! It was AWESOME! So exciting! Then I got to go see the Biology labs and look at my books in the bookstore! Yay! Yes, I'm a geek, but I'm awesome anyway!
Break almost over...:(
So, my break from school is almost over, boooo! Classes start June 7, yay. I am praying to make it through and pass. ugggh.
I am almost looking forward to it, but kinda not. I like the idea of having something to do that isn't house work, but I know it's going to be hard and really time consuming and my kids will be totally annoying. Because they are kids, and it's what they do.
My little man is learning to swim! He actually let go of our hands and swam by himself yesterday! (he is in a floaty vest, but he usually won't let go of his adult) so we are really proud of him! Gwen has mastered the doggy paddle, and is really proud!
Gwen has a recital coming up! yay, it's going to be so amazing! I can't wait to see it!June 12, at 7:00 pm. I am picking up all the tickets tonight! She is going to be great! She is also finished with second grade and getting ready for third! We got these great summer bridge books that take her from second grade to third grade level work. She is working through it pretty quickly. She's a smart girl.
We bought a van! Yay for space between kids and less arguing on the road! SOOOO NICE! Looking forward to taking it on our trip to Florida! We have room for all our stuff and the kids won't drive each other, or us, crazy! It' going to be great! (and I'll be done with all my classes by then!) Bonus!
I am trying to be positive, I am, but I am having a tough time. I feel really disconnected from my friends. I never get to see them, cause, lets face it, I'm stuck with all these kids all the time. I miss them, I miss having adult women to hang out with.
I am almost looking forward to it, but kinda not. I like the idea of having something to do that isn't house work, but I know it's going to be hard and really time consuming and my kids will be totally annoying. Because they are kids, and it's what they do.
My little man is learning to swim! He actually let go of our hands and swam by himself yesterday! (he is in a floaty vest, but he usually won't let go of his adult) so we are really proud of him! Gwen has mastered the doggy paddle, and is really proud!
Gwen has a recital coming up! yay, it's going to be so amazing! I can't wait to see it!June 12, at 7:00 pm. I am picking up all the tickets tonight! She is going to be great! She is also finished with second grade and getting ready for third! We got these great summer bridge books that take her from second grade to third grade level work. She is working through it pretty quickly. She's a smart girl.
We bought a van! Yay for space between kids and less arguing on the road! SOOOO NICE! Looking forward to taking it on our trip to Florida! We have room for all our stuff and the kids won't drive each other, or us, crazy! It' going to be great! (and I'll be done with all my classes by then!) Bonus!
I am trying to be positive, I am, but I am having a tough time. I feel really disconnected from my friends. I never get to see them, cause, lets face it, I'm stuck with all these kids all the time. I miss them, I miss having adult women to hang out with.
Friday, May 14, 2010
I did it!
I passed my math class! Not with a C either, I got a B! Can you believe it! I was SHOCKED when I found out! Now I can move on to my next two classes. Anatomy and Pharmacology. Exciting stuff huh?
However, the progression of my classes does raise some questions for our family. We will need a sitter for several labs this semester. And probably for test as well. We are hoping that Phil can do most of them, but I don't have the schedule yet so we don't know. But if he can't we don't know if his parents can watch the kids, or maybe his sister, or one of our friends.. what will we be able to pay them? CAN we pay someone? Then next is the question of what we are going to do when I HAVE to take my classes on campus? That is coming up soon, sooner than I think even I realize. Will we be able to keep homeschooling? I really want to. I am hoping to find someone to stay with them and help them do their school work. I do NOT want to have to put them in school. Especially since only Gwen and later in the year, Annabelle, will be able to go to public school. But I really want to avoid that at all costs. Please pray for us about this.
I am leading worship for the kids again this Sunday! It's lots of fun, I really love it. BUT, with so much going on, I am afraid that I may have to stop doing Wednesday nights. I still have vocal team, but over the summer there is no choir practice. I guess it will depend on how school works out.
So much is going on, so many decisions need to be made, or are about the need to be made... it's good, but still stressful!
On a fun note, I am taking the kids to the library in Tomball Saturday! Phil will be working so they will get to see him and have fun at the Library! I really like the colleges library, so this should be fun!
However, the progression of my classes does raise some questions for our family. We will need a sitter for several labs this semester. And probably for test as well. We are hoping that Phil can do most of them, but I don't have the schedule yet so we don't know. But if he can't we don't know if his parents can watch the kids, or maybe his sister, or one of our friends.. what will we be able to pay them? CAN we pay someone? Then next is the question of what we are going to do when I HAVE to take my classes on campus? That is coming up soon, sooner than I think even I realize. Will we be able to keep homeschooling? I really want to. I am hoping to find someone to stay with them and help them do their school work. I do NOT want to have to put them in school. Especially since only Gwen and later in the year, Annabelle, will be able to go to public school. But I really want to avoid that at all costs. Please pray for us about this.
I am leading worship for the kids again this Sunday! It's lots of fun, I really love it. BUT, with so much going on, I am afraid that I may have to stop doing Wednesday nights. I still have vocal team, but over the summer there is no choir practice. I guess it will depend on how school works out.
So much is going on, so many decisions need to be made, or are about the need to be made... it's good, but still stressful!
On a fun note, I am taking the kids to the library in Tomball Saturday! Phil will be working so they will get to see him and have fun at the Library! I really like the colleges library, so this should be fun!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
A big step..
So, I have taken a really big and pretty scary step. I turned in my application for our worship leader training at church, The David Project. I will find out when I audition later this week or next. I will have to sing for my worship leader, that's pretty intimidating for me. But I am going to go and do my best. I really debated doing this, but I decided that if God wants me in, He will make it happen. But I would never make it if I didn't even try. So, I am stepping out, and it's scary, but I am ready to see what God is going to do.
On a positive note, I got to lead worship for the kids on Sunday and it went great! I really enjoyed it!
On a positive note, I got to lead worship for the kids on Sunday and it went great! I really enjoyed it!
FINISHED!
Today I took my math final! I am DONE with this class! Now just praying that I passed! WHOOHOO! Tonight, I am going to stay up late and read a book! Really looking forward to some down time. I worked hard and hopefully I passed my math class. Not really worrying about my psych class. I am pretty sure that I did well. I really like psychology.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
break coming up!
I have a break between classes coming up in about a week in a half or so. Two weeks off! I have finally decided what I am going to do!
Play my guitar
Singing practice
Workout at my normal time
Read It Had to Be You, by Janice Hanna
Work on Annabelle's kindergarten work.
It's going to be glorious! SOOOOO looking forward to it!
Play my guitar
Singing practice
Workout at my normal time
Read It Had to Be You, by Janice Hanna
Work on Annabelle's kindergarten work.
It's going to be glorious! SOOOOO looking forward to it!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Another note
Gwen will finish her homeschool this week, hopefully! She will be finishing second grade! Yay for Gwen! Over the summer I will be getting Annabelle more used to working every day on Kinder. I'm not pushing her to much, she is still young. I will try to finish most of kindergarten over the summer. We will see how she does. She is doing good with identifying all the uppercase letters, so we will move to lowercase letters. She can write pretty well. She is doing good. Gwen will be moving to a computer based curriculum next year, she will like that.
Need to breathe...
The end of the semester is upon us! I have a math and psych final to take, I think there is another psych test first, but no idea! So I am trying to get as much studying in as possible. I really need a good grade on my math final. SO, I am seeking help, going to sit down with a friend before choir on Wednesday. Maybe he can help me figure this stuff out!
Speaking of Wednesday, I am leading worship for the kids, but before that I am getting an evaluation from my choir director. Hopefully it will go well and I won't freak out and get nervous. We will see.
We had William's second birthday party on Saturday. We got a pool and a dog earlier that same week. Upon arriving at our house and walking into the backyard, my 11 year old nephew says, "That is a SWEET pool." I almost drowned. It was really funny. The party went pretty well. It ended up being only family, no one else could make it. But we had cake and ice cream and presents. William got a drum set, he loves it.
There has been lots of swimming going on. The kids love the pool and we are teaching them to swim. William loves to hold Daddies hands and kick his feet. Gwen and Annabelle are doing well even taking floaties off to swim solo. It's fun to watch them figure it out.
Thursday we have a church plant meeting. Yay! I really enjoy them. We went to a friend of ours new church on Sunday. It was great, the message was just what I needed. Trying to keep it in mind this week. It's been hard and stressful already. Saturday is Gwen's ballet exam, so pray for her. I think she will do great. Unfortunately I don't think she will be in ballet next year, we can't really afford it. So if anyone out there wants to donate $58 dollars a month, that would be great. Sunday morning I am helping to lead worship for the kids. Fun stuff. But in between all of this, I have SOOOOO MUCH studying to do. I am looking forward to being done and having some space to breathe. Pray for me, I don't think I did well on my last math test, and I have to have a c average to get into surg. tech classes. If I don't pass this math class, I can't take pharmacology next semester. So pray that some of this studying sticks and my hard work will pay off, would you?
Speaking of Wednesday, I am leading worship for the kids, but before that I am getting an evaluation from my choir director. Hopefully it will go well and I won't freak out and get nervous. We will see.
We had William's second birthday party on Saturday. We got a pool and a dog earlier that same week. Upon arriving at our house and walking into the backyard, my 11 year old nephew says, "That is a SWEET pool." I almost drowned. It was really funny. The party went pretty well. It ended up being only family, no one else could make it. But we had cake and ice cream and presents. William got a drum set, he loves it.
There has been lots of swimming going on. The kids love the pool and we are teaching them to swim. William loves to hold Daddies hands and kick his feet. Gwen and Annabelle are doing well even taking floaties off to swim solo. It's fun to watch them figure it out.
Thursday we have a church plant meeting. Yay! I really enjoy them. We went to a friend of ours new church on Sunday. It was great, the message was just what I needed. Trying to keep it in mind this week. It's been hard and stressful already. Saturday is Gwen's ballet exam, so pray for her. I think she will do great. Unfortunately I don't think she will be in ballet next year, we can't really afford it. So if anyone out there wants to donate $58 dollars a month, that would be great. Sunday morning I am helping to lead worship for the kids. Fun stuff. But in between all of this, I have SOOOOO MUCH studying to do. I am looking forward to being done and having some space to breathe. Pray for me, I don't think I did well on my last math test, and I have to have a c average to get into surg. tech classes. If I don't pass this math class, I can't take pharmacology next semester. So pray that some of this studying sticks and my hard work will pay off, would you?
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